Did my Mom REALLY CARED about my Brother Jojo dying or were they just SCARED to DIE themselves Please ANWER I?

really need to know, because that day I remember walking from my friend Norma's house and I remembered my Whole Entire FAMILY down on their knees praying to Mother Mary I mean I don't did she Care or Were they just scared that they were NEXT? I felt bad that my brother died but not like how I do Now because then it was like oh poor him but I was Embarassed because he was from the Philippines and ya I wanted to be Mexican like my Cousin Lily with all her STUFF and NICE house and having lots of FRIENDS being Pretty and her good looks and ALL so ya I told my Mexican friend that my Papa died even though it was just a big FAT LIE but in REALITY my Kuya Died he was living in POVERTY and just Horrible you know and they took off his right or left leg right before he died and NOW that I know the WHOLE TRUTH well maybe theres more I'm gonna FIND OUT anyways now that I know I was wondering Did my Mom even REALLY Cared? like just a Little bit? it seems like how I felt then when I didn't REALLY know you know ohhhh poor him but OH WELL type of thing because he was FILIPINO and I was Embarassed you know? and I remember Gig Galang came it was my BROTHERS BESTFRIEND he took us to Lions Hotel and he was just ya talking CRAP about my brother Billy being Gay and my Mom was so Offended but now I know why he was I don't know and all the Mexicans in National City was just parading around in their cars and stuff but ya I don't know tell me Did my Mom REALLY CARED or was it just an ACT? Was she FEELING How I felt then when I didn't KNOW then All I felt was awwww poor him but OH WELL like it was NOTHING no Big DEAL =0(